titanic

This would the the most pristine people watching place. 

How cool would it be to go on a midnight run all by yourself ? I know I could easily put on my workout clothes and head on out the door, but then all the factors of reality like safety and being chased by scary monsters come into play. I mean, think about it. Just you and the night time. Because no one goes running at night, you would basically be by yourself among cars and such. I'm just such a night person that one of these days I'm going to force myself to run at midnight. I've been a night person for as long as I can recall. Even at a young age I would always stay up late to just watch the night sky. There is something so cool about looking up at the sky and seeing stars. you never know, those stars could be stars to other planets, and to other 19 year old girls that want to take an adventure run at midnight. Or...they could be stars to a planet that only has purple flamingos and they're all bald and the government there mandates that every family has 4 pet parrots, and they only must feed off of lego pieces and pencils. eh.

Sometimes I like to be alone more than I like to be with people.

My dog,carmella, just fell off my bed. She does this weird thing where she burrows herself into my comforter and sleeps in there as if shes in a cave. I tell her a lot of my stories. As sad as that is, it's actually really refreshing to talk to a living being that's not human. She doesn't talk back to me, or tell me I'm crazy for liking the same guy multiple times despite how much of a puzzle he is. I know all she hears is "alefhaoiah FOOD aklehaighagilahleigahgli" but still, I like it. I always laugh when I let her outside and she barks to her dog friends and they converse about God knows what. Probably like how awful humans are, and what scenario the "puppy" eyes worked for that day. But, for now, I'll let her be in her own dog world so that she doesn't see how confusing the human world is. 

I like this.

Do you ever stay up late at night thinking about insane things? Because recently, that's all I've been doing come 11pm. I think about how cool it would have been to meet Walt Disney because of his awesomely creative mind. I think about if toucans ever  get self conscious about their beak colors, or if they're completely oblivious. I think about how terrible it would be to work at a jeweler because all day you'd watch sappy couples pick out wedding rings together, and here I am thinking about how excited I am to tell my dog about this Grey's episode that I watched. I think about how excited i am for my future, but how scared i am for it to be so real so soon. I think about how lucky I am to have a house and food and water, and how i really should save my money to be able to travel to a foreign country to give back to the world. I think about how fruit snacks were invented, and about how much I want to write a letter to the head of the library at my school and say " please dear GOD be open 24/7 and let there be bunks we can rent out so I can just live there." But most of all, I think about if other people think about insane things like me. I have really weird dreams of talking popsicles and caterpillars that can ice skate...and even worms that get married on the titanic and only cats are there to help them off before their whole wedding party drowns and all they have left to eat are soggy tacos and a half jar of peanut butter. 

ya.